Back from filming. It was an ambitious, if not crazy schedule of 15 production days for a feature film. I have to say, had huge reservations. Been witness to over ambitious, under funded, under seasoned film makers damage good peoples spirits. The one thing on the table that felt safe was that an old friend was leading the charge as director. Went, learned, healed. Got my Mojo filled up. I feel changed. Healed, and just plain better. So, that is the “around the horn”, topic. What filled your Mojo? Changed your life? Made you better? Deep question, but deep is good in between the fart jokes.
So my Mojo story is:
For a lot of good folks it’s been year of roller coaster of emotions, sorrows, and life changing disappointments. For a lot of us this year just wouldn’t give that extra breath between rounds. I was in a title fight that I didn’t have time to train for. A title I didn’t even want.
Some blows knock me to the ground. It was hard to get back up. Throwing in the towel seemed like a good call. Felt things were quiting on me. But here is where the wave starts: Without the wonderful people I have around me getting knocked out was a non issue. What’s the point of a fight if your not fighting for something? All my friends, family and the woman by my side gave me something to fight for. That extra shout from the corner goes a long way.
So the year kept going, kept on fighting. Kept on keeping on. Funny thing about “keeping on” don’t remember much of it. It naturally gets stored somewhere far away. So I guess it wasn’t that bad. This year I learned there is a natural balance to things. Appreciating Mojo can only happen if you’ve gone without it. Simple, but we fight and try to control the balance in favor of our convenience. So there you go, there’s the wise man saying… “to know good one must equally know bad”.
My experience in Hawaii filled my Mojo. I was losing faith in what I was doing. I couldn’t see the point anymore. What’s my contribution? Why even say hello? A little film brought me to Hawaii, not because of money, celebrity or any rational pragmatic reason. I went for something that had truth and sincerity beneath it. I love to act. Hawaii answered all the questions weighing me down. A healing was happened. Faith was back. Faith in myself, the process. Faith in people, it’s ok to say hellp. Faith in others. Faith in what I was doing did make a contribution. The crew and people I met Hawaii gave me long big hug. I know it’s all going to ok now. I wish I could bottle it and give it out to everyone.
Be well friends.