“For a group of people that are supposed to be good at math, you guys must be retarded to keep making Asian American films.”

That is a direct quote from a conversation I had with a veteran film producer last week about one of my upcoming projects. But before you make any judgment, you need to know that he is Asian American.

Such remarks are not uncommon from a lot of Asian Americans working in the industry. In fact they tend to be some of the loudest naysayers and, at times, biggest obstacles on anything ‘Asian American’ (I will get to that on another day). That being said, I do understand his point. He was referring to Asian American cinema as a business. “Screw business!” you might say, but the reality is that filmmaking is a collision between art and commerce (even the cheapest of films will cost more than your average Mercedes). And within the context of Asian American films, the big elephant in the room has always been its business viability. “It’s a young man’s game,” a filmmaker once told me about Asian American films, “it’s fun to talk about representin’ and stuff until you get a mortgage.” And as a business it definitely makes no sense.

Here are the facts: there’s no defined audience and the numbers just are not there. Also, very rarely do Asian American films get picked up for traditional distribution (pipeline including theatrical, home video, VOD, cable, etc.) which is still the standard of measure for any film. And because of that, there hasn’t been enough Asian American films deemed profitable to establish a pattern for a business plan. Whether we like it or not, a thriving business will inevitably be connected to any thriving cinema.

To be fair, the truth is that almost all independent films lose money for its investors, not just Asian American ones. Of course it’s great whenever we read heartwarming Cinderella stories about unknown filmmakers making it big, but we never hear about the thousands who didn’t.

Look, I’m an expert on losing money making Asian American films (seriously, don’t try this at home, kids). I’ve lost as much money as Charles Barkley has gambling in Vegas and the funny thing is, he actually had a better chance of winning. I’m not sharing this as an attempt to garner sympathy but for context. I’m a big boy and knew enough of the risks when I decided to make the films.

So why make Asian American films then? Am I doing it for the ‘cause’? I’d like to say yes, but then I’d be lying (and yes, I will be exploring the idea of the ‘cause’ in detail at a later date).

At the end of the day, it’s just a personal choice. When I was starting out and no one believed in me and I had to apply for ten credit cards to fund my own movie, it became crystal clear what film I wanted to make, the characters I wanted to see, and themes and subjects I wanted to tackle. And since then I continue to have stories, some with Asian American characters, issues and themes I want to explore. And in order for me to do so I have to approach it on an independent level. Is it good business? No. Am I ‘retarded’? I’m not sure. I do know one thing though, I don’t need to go to Vegas to lose money, I’m just going to keep making Asian American films.

Disclaimer: this is just my opinion as a filmmaker of independent films so even though I’ve lost money, it’s nothing compared to the people who truly fund films. At a later date I will present another extremely valuable point of view: that of a producer/financier (damn, there’s a lot of I.O.U.’s in the blog!).